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hmmm, pretty much forgot about this thing until today. lol. i love you all!
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[16 Feb 2005|09:15pm] |
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wow, i haven't written in here in a long time! phew!! lol. well, i just wanted you all to know that i am still alive and i love all of you, but i am using xanga a lot more cuz i don't know how to post pics on here. i_love_pooh_bear is my xanga thingy.
love y'all!!
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[09 Jan 2005|12:34pm] |
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i don't like sundays. they make me sad. i mean think about it. all you do is homework, and you are forced to be at home with your family the whole day and you can't go out that night because it is a school night. G-A-Y! lol. sorry, i am just tired right now.
anyhow, i got my birthday present today...a membership to 24 hour fitness. i am not getting any more presents because the membership was so expensive, but it is kinda gay cuz i didn't ask for the membership. ahh! damn it! and my bday isn't until february so i am not gonna get my ipod i asked for. damn it. well, atleast i get a car. that is all good. and i don't have to pay for insurance or gas...so those are a couple more plus's.
i think i like xanga better than lj cuz no one comments on this and i don't have as many friends on lj. so i may give up...for a while...or until next week until i get bored and come back.
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[01 Jan 2005|01:25pm] |
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HAPPY NEW YEARS!!
ok, done with that, but now i want to talk about how pissed off i am.
i don't understand why i act like i do. i am so obsessed with people liking me that i let them walk all over me. i do stuff that i don't want to do and i don't have the guts to tell the person that i don't like doing what we are doing cuz i am scared that they are going to get pissed off and hate me. why do i fucking care? i truly do not understand. i think that i am a pretty laid back person, but i have this problem that i obsess over what people think about me. but it isn't always like that. it is like i care what my friends think, but i am really pretty good at being outgoing and introducing myself to people. like say there is a guy that i don't know, but he seems really nice, i will go up and talk to him and not really care if he doesn't like me at the time because i figure when i talk to him next time he will walk away or something. but if i am with my friends i am scared of what they think. i don't understand my problem. but then i just get so angry that i end up being really upset and the other person doesn't know.
and another thing that i hate about how i act is how i just go off and tell other people my problems. i mean what makes me think that they fucking care? and then i tell them about my problems and they go off and talk to the person that i was talking about even if i tell them that i want to confront the person myself. i really don't get it. i am so pissed off at myself because i talk about my problems with people who don't need to hear them. like if i have a problem with a girl, then i will talk to a guy or a girl who is easy to talk to and will give me advice, and they give good advice, but before i can act and fix my problems, the person goes and tells the person i had the problem with what i told them. they need to hear it from me, but i am such a pussy that i won't confront someone right away. i am just so scared that if i confront someone and tell them my problem with them that they will no longer like me.
god damn it! i hate this! i just want to leave everyone and everything behind and move away. i wouldn't have to worry about proving myself, or pleasing people. i would just keep to myself and finish high school. god! this is really annoying!
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[27 Dec 2004|05:45pm] |
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i think i am boy-crazy...
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[25 Dec 2004|07:15pm] |
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MERRY CHRISTMAS!! omgomgomgomg! i am so happy! i got a digital camera! yay! that is the best gift i got, except the guitar i am getting next week. we didn't have time to buy it last week. yay! i am so happy!
( stolen from esmie )
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[22 Dec 2004|11:05pm] |
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robert is AMAZING!! he is so awesome!
ok, so if you know me, you know i LOVE pooh bear. my room is like all pooh bear. well, for christmas, robert gave me a huge pooh bear that was really soft! i love it! and around the bear's arm is a little pillow that says "i love you" on it, and when you press it, robert's voice is recorded saying "roflcopter". AHH!! i love it! it may be the best present i have ever gotten...well until i get my digital camera from my parents. jk. i love robert and his gift, although the gifr i gave him is kinda bad compared to what he gave me. oh well.
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[22 Dec 2004|12:00pm] |
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winter break is...overrated. it will be over too soon, and i won't do anything i want. but so far it has been pretty good. who do you know that can sit in a laundary room for 3 hours singing songs from their past? yea, mis amigas can! lol
my computer is so gay! i haven't been able to be online for 4 days! AHH!
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[15 Dec 2004|10:05am] |
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two finals down...five to go!! so far i have done my band and advanced computer applications finals, yes, the easy ones are done, now all i have left are semi-hard and really hard ones. lol. the last one that i have to do today is spanish. damn it. why can't everyone in the world just choose a language to speak and we all understand? like chinese, that is a pretty cool language, or french, a romantic language? i just don't understand. ahhh! oh well.
tomorrow i have:
*ap european history (hard and long...rofl, that doesn't sound like i am talking about a test!)
*algebra II (easy, but long)
friday i have:
*earth-space science (easy as pie)
*honors comm. arts (english in other words, i don't really know what we will be tested over considering we haven't learned ANYTHING!)
STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!! thank god i have headphones!
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i stole this from leslie's xanga....but i agree completely! so all you boys better listen up to this!!
1. Don't tell us when you think other girls are hot.
2. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
3. If you don't act like soap-opera guys, don't expect us to dress like Victoria Secret models.
4. Mark anniversaries on a calendar.
5. There is no such thing as too much spooning.
6. Just because you L the C doesn't mean we have to S the D.
7. This is how we see it ... Don't call = Don't Care.
8. Which also means that if we don't call, take the hint.
9. We like you to be a little jealous... but overly possessive is not necessary.
10. Putting things in our butt does not turn us on.
11. Return favors: we massage, you massage; we go down, you go down; we shave, you shave (and not just your face).
12. Foreplay is not an option… its a prerequisite.
13. We're allowed to be late... you are not.
14. Eye contact is key.
15. Don't take longer to get ready than we do.
16. Laugh at our jokes.
17. Three words... honesty, honesty, honesty.
18. Girls can be groupies. Guy groupies are stalkers.
19. We never have to wonder if your orgasm was real.
20. Do not start with us. You will not win.
21. Would you like it if a guy treated your sister that way? We didn't think so.
22. If you ask nicely, we usually answer the same way.
23. We will never have enough clothes or shoes!
24. We have an excuse to act bitchy at least once a month.
25. Open the door for us no matter where we are... even at our house and getting into the car.
26. We love surprises!
27. We liked to be kissed softly, not with an iron tongue.
28. Pay attention to the little things we do, because they mean the most.
29. Boxers and maybe boxer briefs sometimes... NEVER whitey-tighties, NEVER!
30. Clean your room before we come over.
31. Always brush your teeth before you see us... a fresh mouth and white teeth are a necessity.
32. When we use our teeth it means that you suck at going down on us, so we are just returning the favor.
33. Even though you are sometimes insensitive and hurt us, we still love you with everything we have.
34. Hit it and quit it, because later I'll be with you're best friend and he lasts for hours.
35. Don't act hard around your friends because I won't make you hard tonight.
36. Sometimes "NO!" really means "NO!"
37. "Wife Beaters" are not an adequate form of fashion.
38. If we wanted to be on video tape, we'd be a porn star not your girlfriend.
39. Sensitive guys are great... but crying more than we do in a movie just isn't right.
40. Don't let ex-girlfriends cause drama, relationships are stressful enough.
41. It takes a special kind of stupid to forget birthdays.
42. Guys who are good cuddlers = guys who know how to satisfy a woman.
43. "Fat Chicks" have feelings too.
44. Silent treatment, shoulder shrugs, tears, yelling and nasty looks all add up to... YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG!
45. If you are not a good dancer, please be self-aware.
46. Just because a girl doesn't pick up on the first ring doesn't mean she's not waiting by the phone.
47. You don't have to spend a lot, if it means a lot.
48. DONT SAY YOU LOVE ME UNLESS YOU MEAN IT!!!!!
49. Don't lie to us... we will catch you.
50. When the girls get together, we talk about EVERYTHING. Meaning my best friends know everything about you.
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omg...i broke my permanent retainer last night while i was talking to robert, my brother came home and ruined my dinner, and i am extrememly sad because of a problem that was my fault. god! i better get to go to oceans 12 tonite, or anythin else, or i might cry. i seriously don't like my brother....SERIOUSLY!! i will post pictures on my xanga later tho, when i am in a better mood. so you should check it out. i don't know how to post pictures on lj. oh well. i am sad, so i am going to go.
i am thinking about making my journal friends-only (like miller), what do you think?
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today has been busy, and i am worried about this week. although it is only 2 days i have a test in mcspickentosh's class (leslie wants me to call her that, it is really mcintosh) over All Quiet On the Western Front, yes i am fucked cuz i have only read the first 23 pages, but since the test is an essay, i don't know what i am going to do. i am truely fucked. then i have an ap euro test on tues. which ofcourse will be unbelievebly difficult. damn it! atleast tuesday night will be good if all goes as planned.
oh yea and leslie is going to colorado during thanksgiving, i don't know when she will be home but she is leaving tues. i am sad cuz we had so much fun this weekend, it was definately a "leslie and alison" weekend. lol
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procrastination is like masturbation, it feels great in the beginning, but in the end, you are only screwing yourself.
**From Amber**
me, leslie, and caylin just ran in the rain, then stripped right next to her back door it was great. ;0)
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this is going to be a long, complaining post, so if you don't want to read it, you don't have to.
omg, wtf? i seriously do not like some of the girls on our gymnastics team. seriously. ok, so katie, ashley, and tiffany thought they would initiate us. well my mom didn't want me going ot the hotel anyways, so ashley's mom talked my mom into it, the thing is, ashley's mom knew that they were going to initate us, and so did tiffany and katie's moms. ofcourse, my mom would have never let me spend the night if she knew this. so anyways, we went to the hotel, and we swam, and watched man on fire, and all that, but then tiffany decided she needed to go home and get some clothes, so ashley, tiffany, and katie left, and htey didn't come back for like an hour, they went to mcdonalds and got ice cream for themselves and came back to the room. so they came back and then we went to ride elevators, we thought they would ride with us, but they went back to the room first, and locked us out. they told us we had to get them pillows and cookies if we wanted back in. so we were pissed and went to another floor and sat there for like half an hour, when we came back they were like "omg we were so scared for you! where were you!" and all that shit, so we were just like, we were hanging out since you guys wouldn't let us in. ahh! then this morning they woke us up at lik 615 (not a bad time) and taped us to our beds, then sprayed silly string in our hair, and held us down while they drew on us. Also they they dumped sugar all over us then held us down and colored our hair. finally, we thought they were gone, and they came back with ice and dumped it on our heads and in our shirts. then they were going to make us go down to breakfast, but i told them i was sick, so we stayed in the room. i am so not joking tho, it may not sound serious, but we were like yelling in the beginning for htem to not like hold us down. it was bad, and majorly humiliating. ahh. it was bad. so now my mom and kelsey's mom and gracie's moms are really mad. seriously, initiation is supposed to be about dressing the freshmen up and making htem walk aroudn school, or like making them go to places dressed up, this was more like a hazing. ahh. i dunno i am just so pissed
you may think this is funny, and if you do, please don't comment.
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i am in computer class rite now cuz it is my only way to get on a computer, considering mine is completely screwed over. well this weekend was great until i came home from school yesterday.
i guess someone told their mom that me and robert were on the couch making out in front of everyone at the halloween party. that is fucking bull shit. i kissed him once that night, and that was a good bye kiss on the stairs so no one would see. i don't know who said this, but i am fucking pissed off. i guess also that that person told their mom that me and robert have sex. well that obviously is a complete lie. i am still a virgin and i am proud to be one at the age of 15.
whoever told these lies about me needs to confess so i atleast have respect for you. right now, i don't trust any of my friends except leslie because the person also told lies about her. so if you know who it was, and if that person didn't mean to make this up, please tell me. if they were concerned than i am appreciative, but my mom is watching me like a hawk now, so please tell me. i am not mad.
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ahh, ok well i can't update this thing a lot cuz my computer crashed, so if i am not on the internet and not updating this, then you know that my computer is officially crashed.
this weekend will rock!! i am psyched!!!
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homecoming was PERFECT!!
it started out with the band kids going to KU and marching, then all the girls only had 2 hours to get ready. haha. well, i took a shower, and dried my hair and shaved my legs in just enough time to do my hair...or so i thought. well, it was only supposed to take an hour to do my hair, but it ended up that robert and his mom had to sit downstairs with my dad for like 30 mins while we finished my hair. i felt so bad!! then i came down and we couldn't put his boutinere on, and his mom accidentally broke it. oops! lol. then we went to rachel's house to take pictures. it was ok, that was probably one of my least favorite parts, too many flashes!! then me and robert rode wiht leslie and dan to the japanese steakhouse. ooh let me tell you, that was goooood. yummy. but i felt kinda bad cuz it was expensive, but robert was like, it is fine! don't worry! so i eventually didn't feel bad anymore.
when we got to the dance, at first it sucked, and we wanted to leave, but then we got pictures and me and leslie started dancing, so it got our group to dance. really i think the first slow dance loosened everyone up. anyways, it was awesome! then i talked my mom into letting me stay at dans until 12:30 and we went there from like 11:20. that was TONS of fun. trust me. lol. OH YEA!! also, at the dance i accidentally broke robert's butinere! ahh! i felt so bad! like you have no idea! i like broke the flower off. haha. it was ok tho, cuz later dan's got suck in leslie's hair. haha.
so yea, homecoming was pretty much perfect.
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bad things have been happening. i have found out something terrible that made me extremely depressed for the last two days. i am sorry for whoever i affected.
another thing i found out is taht the guy who murdered richie restivo is not able to be on trial. supposedly he is not "menally capapble of standing on trial" that is a load of bull shit. so guess what? he might just walk free.
homecoming is going to be hectic. there is 12 people coming in our group. don't get me wrong, i love everyone who is coming, but i am just frustrated cuz so many more people are coming than expected. we have expanded our group by 3x its original size. and i don't know if there are enough seats at the japanese steak house. damn
i am sorry about the complaining, don't comment, i don't really care.
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i just realized, i am so lucky. robert is a complete knock out. i am serious he is so hott, and he somehow chose me (haha opposite of hott) to be his girlfriend. i am surprised that he actually chose me over other girls in our school that are much prettier.
i realized the last two days how damn irrisistable he is. i mean seriously he is really hott. i don't know what i am getting at. the point is, i am very thankful.
also, how lucky am i to have my best friend live across the street for my whole life? i mean since we were in 2nd grade we have been best friends and she has always been there.
wow...
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weekends suck. all people ever do is try to make plans that are soon crashed. i just don't like them, summer is much better. plus, on weekends, i sit on my ass and just eat. god i am seriously feeling fat. i eat so much, and have gained a lot since i quit gymnastics. maybe i should go back. just so i can look good again. how i long for my flat stomach, my muscular legs, my arms that could lift a bagillion pounds. oh god, why did i ever quit?
on a lighter note, this week is going ot be so busy!! i am kinda excited cuz i hate it when i just sit at home and do nothing. either that or have an incredible amount of work to do, and just not do it. wow...
homecoming will be fun on saturday, and if not, i am going to die.
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